First thoughts

Forgive me because I am not much of a writer.

This Blog is a way for me to learn and remember one of the most special times in my life.

So if you read this, you probably know me.  I have a career, a life, am full of life and fun and don't have major regrets.  But this is a whole new ballpark!  I adopted a puppy on Saturday January 22, 2011.  I live in Tucson, been here 10 years.  We had a great tragedy just a couple of weeks ago.  America paid attention, even if only for its short attention span.  Our congresswoman, Gabby Giffords, was shot in the head and several others died or were wounded, including of course a 9-year-old girl.  Horrible. Shameful.

Move forward to 4 days ago.  I knew I wanted a dog, a companion, someone to take care of me and vice-versa.  A good friend asked me today, why now? Was it impulsive? Did I give up on having children or am I testing the waters? All very valid questions. Honestly, I don't know the answer.  But I think that instead of saying I gave up on having children I have decided to start a family and share special moments with someone. Whatever happens next, we'll see.

It was serendipitous.  A normal Saturday motorcycle ride turned into a casual visit to a Petsmart in Tucson  (Broadway and Pantano?). Tucson cold wet noses (http://tucsoncoldwetnoses.com) rescue group was there. I didn't even know where I was but once I saw her I knew she was the right one.  Yeah she was skinny, yeah she was shy, then barking up a storm... but when you know you know. This little girl was in a crate with her brother and she was very protective. She was gorgeous! But if you looked past her hesitation, excitement, anxiety, you could see a great pup.  I am glad it happened.

If you ask me, what is she? I have no freaking clue!  But I know she is gorgeous! And during the past 4 days, she has become an irresistible force of cuteness and unconditional love that cannot be ignored. We are barely getting to know one another, but I think it'll work out fine.  Yes, I know I have a lot of work to do, but I am *finally* able to take the challenge.

I remember how the first evening her heart was beating so fast and her breathing was way too fast and shallow.... enough to make fingertips tingle!  But now she is calm while asleep, which, to my untrained brain means that she feels secure.

My "sister" JoJo gave me a book "Puppies for Dummies".  Yeah yeah I know... what? But you know, great read! I don't pretend to know a thing about pups, but over the past 24 hrs it has helped a lot!  I am also grateful and *blessed* to have such fantastic friends, family and support system right now.

Even if no one reads this blog I will cherish it.  It will be a testament of the new challenges and experiences that I face each day, and hopefully will help me become a better momma.